As we grow older, nostalgia tends to affect us more. We reflect on ourselves and compare how we used to live, versus how we are living now. We see how our past experiences shaped our character and who we became. 

Childhood Trauma. This is something that most people have experienced on either large or smaller scales. But it's something that we all struggle to move on from. It’s why we cope with depression the way that we do.

Validation, Respect, Happiness, Love.

Everyone yearns for it, yet with childhood trauma, you tend to think that you don’t deserve it. And you resent yourself if you get a taste of it. 

You were taught to hate yourself. 

But, 

The only way to grow from the past is by unlearning these thought processes. The hardest part of growing and maturing, is changing these abusive and toxic habits you were taught to have for yourself. It’s hard because it’s the only way of living, the only thing you know. 

Nothing really goes away, it’s always going to stay with you. 

That’s why it’s so hard to escape from childhood trauma. It sticks with you,

until you recognize it and change. 

This collection encapsulates the chaos in my brain from the inability to move on from the trauma and the battle within myself to finally unlearn what I was taught. Designing this collection was my distraction from all of the frustration during this period of my life. 

 In this fall/winter collection, I will be releasing a total of 3 garments at 3 separate times. This will allow me to focus more on my craftsmanship, sustainability, design detail, and mental health. In this series, I will be spreading a message through each garment about my personal reflection on my mental health, to encourage others to do the same. When creating Meplutoi, the goal was to spread a message about positivity and being true to yourself. I will continue to build on this message. 

WILL BE CONTINUED FALL '23

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